The "new" car is the good part...the fear (while not about the car) is the bad part.
We are selling today my 97 Corolla and purchased last night a gently used 04 Sentra. HOORAY! The feeling of having a safe, reliable car again will do wonders for my "isolation." I can go wherever I want! Whenever! And TURN b/c the signals work! Amazing. It's worth having a car payment again.
So the fear part comes in b/c Chris found out today that he has to go to Grand Rapids, MI for training for his new job. For a week at a time. Between now and mid March. Ummmm....my due date is April 9th. How freaked out am I that the baby will come while he's gone? Now, I think that's only a couple of hours from here...and first babies, especially, take a long time to come...and I actually don't think he/she will be born before then...but the possibility of him not being here for every single second of such an important (and somewhat scary) thing is....scary. Luckily, we have lots of friends and family nearby so I know it will all be OK. But it's just crazy how these things happen.
In the last year or so, my life has been such a roller coaster. Although sometimes I feel weak, defeated, scared, I think I have more strength and courage than I know.
I also think I have the stuff to make chocolate chip cookies....so that's what I'll do.
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Matt drove home from Indiana in a blizzard for Michael's birth.
ReplyDeleteIt is good that you have an extensive support system - I know it will all be fine. I'm sure Chris wants to be there as much as you want him there. And first babies DO tend to take their time.
Have faith!